Yes, it lives.....
it doesn't always thrive it's true...
but as a concept, it's all still up there in my head, waiting for me to put my positive commandments into action.
I have a complex relationship with myself, it colours all things...
did I ever tell you I was diagnosed as bi-polar as a young adult?... that was before it was a trendy must have disorder and had a funky new name...
So you see, hapiness, Islamic or otherwise takes some work.
Simply to keep on an even keel takes some doing, but most days I think I get there.
Right now I need to spend some time re-affirming my goals...
taking the time to understand my relationship with Allah.
Ramadhan is nearly here, and I need to push myself in to a positive frame of mind in order to extract the very best of what that wonderful month of fasting has to offer.
So renewed effort on my part insha'allah..
and an emphasis on getting back to basics
Each week in the run up to Ramadhan I will look at one key area of my life as a Muslim and try to perfect it, or at the least to reaffirm my understanding of it.
This week Salat and perfecting my khushoo will be my priority.
Khushoo in a busy house is not always easy to achieve, but prayer is a balm that heals all wounds.
I can't think of a better place to start...
MashaAllah. I understand 100%, as I was diagnosed with bi-polar as a young adult too. May Allah make it easy for both of us, ameen.
ReplyDeletemay you acheive all your ogals and more insha'allah :)x
ReplyDeleteAmeen to sister Kaighla