Okay people (cue applause) I got to day 14....
pretty good given my track record of sticking to things...
Day 14 is when life hit, school is out, children are home and well, there just aren't enough hours in the day to be honest.
In fact the only reason I'm here now is because they're uncommonly late getting up and dh has left already. Otherwise.... ah well you know how it goes..
Nothing of note has been happening... we hit a bit of a wall (again) which has hit our holiday plans somewhat... but at this stage in the game I just kind of sit back and accept that this is Allah's plan and not mine, and it just "is what it is"..
Nothing more I can do... you can let frustration get the better of you but then where would you be huh?
So I'm pushing through the days, trying to get things done, and more importantly trying to find some space to get closer to Allah ta'ala.
I'm not too happy with where I'm at, Islamically.. and I really feel the need to get back to basics and improve in my worship...
I'm sure I've mentioned before that when I stopped homeschooling it had a huge impact on my eeman and how I practiced Islam on a daily basis... it's been nearly three years now and I do believe it's time enough and that some hard graft needs to happen round here...
I feel it's the answer to alot of my current predicaments and I really feel the need to find some balance.
I was discussing with dh the other night that it's something of a sadness to me that we got lulled into a false sense of security when we came to live in Dz... and that we took much better care of our deen when we weren't surrounded by Muslims... I mean we nurtured it, tended it...made sure it thrived.
The problem is, we lost focus, and didn't realise it... and now it's time to get back on track inshallah
I am working on a project in what spare time mymarauding beasts children allow me, and of course I'll share it when the time is right... but I'm not rushing.. I'm taking some time to play things out and see where the feeling takes me.
And now it's time to go... children have been let out into the ziniqa (alley) while their mothers get on with the morning cleaning and it's only a matter of time before my own children rumble the fact that I've let them sleep in... yup, time to get on with the day inshallah...
pretty good given my track record of sticking to things...
Day 14 is when life hit, school is out, children are home and well, there just aren't enough hours in the day to be honest.
In fact the only reason I'm here now is because they're uncommonly late getting up and dh has left already. Otherwise.... ah well you know how it goes..
Nothing of note has been happening... we hit a bit of a wall (again) which has hit our holiday plans somewhat... but at this stage in the game I just kind of sit back and accept that this is Allah's plan and not mine, and it just "is what it is"..
Nothing more I can do... you can let frustration get the better of you but then where would you be huh?
So I'm pushing through the days, trying to get things done, and more importantly trying to find some space to get closer to Allah ta'ala.
I'm not too happy with where I'm at, Islamically.. and I really feel the need to get back to basics and improve in my worship...
I'm sure I've mentioned before that when I stopped homeschooling it had a huge impact on my eeman and how I practiced Islam on a daily basis... it's been nearly three years now and I do believe it's time enough and that some hard graft needs to happen round here...
I feel it's the answer to alot of my current predicaments and I really feel the need to find some balance.
I was discussing with dh the other night that it's something of a sadness to me that we got lulled into a false sense of security when we came to live in Dz... and that we took much better care of our deen when we weren't surrounded by Muslims... I mean we nurtured it, tended it...made sure it thrived.
The problem is, we lost focus, and didn't realise it... and now it's time to get back on track inshallah
I am working on a project in what spare time my
And now it's time to go... children have been let out into the ziniqa (alley) while their mothers get on with the morning cleaning and it's only a matter of time before my own children rumble the fact that I've let them sleep in... yup, time to get on with the day inshallah...
I think you did (and are doing) great on the blogging front! I completely understand what you mean in this post. We tend to take things for granted once we're in a Muslim environment. I need to make some changes too and go back to nurturing my imaan the way I did in the UK.
ReplyDeleteshe is back she is back (mexican wave) she is back she is back (clap clap clap) she is back she is back...
ReplyDeletealhamdulilah you are all ok...children..what a ...blesing...lol...
insh'Allah everything gets sorted for you and you get an iman boost soon
love you fisabililah